The Lord is Good.
My God sees me, knows me, and answers me specifically.
I have been “a Christian” for a long time. And by “Christian” I don’t mean I’ve gone to church for a long time… I have but, that doesn’t make me anything but a church-goer. When I was young I was began to catch onto what a relationship with Jesus was. I began praying from the heart of an 8 year old to a God I didn’t quite understand but He was always quick to let me know that He was there and He was listening.
23 years later it’s still the same way.
For those who follow my blog you already know of my higher risk pregnancy and for those that don’t, click those blue words and read a little bit about it. Well, due to my hereditary blood disorder I needed my little baby girl to be born at 39 weeks. It was dangerous to carry full term even if that was only a week later. In my struggles with inner strength, acceptance of what could happen, and trust that the Lord would do what was best no matter if I liked it or not; I made a very specific request of Him. “Lord, I need You to have her come on her own at 39 weeks.” My due date was August 28th, 39 weeks would be Sunday, August 21st.
August 21st at 12:01am my water broke.
I looked at the clock and laughed. I love and serve and pray to a God that knows me and my needs inside and out. He does these little things to reassure me that He is listening. He brings things about in a way that there is no denying that He made it happen.
But baby girl wasn’t born on August 21st.
At the beginning of my 2nd trimester when my due date (August 28th) was determined by the ultrasound tech, my young friend declared, “That baby is going to be born on my birthday!” She prayed for 5 months that our baby girl would be born on her birthday, August 22nd.
The Lord is Good. My God answered her prayers specifically.
Scarlett is absolutely perfect. They told me in June that there was a “high risk of stillbirth” but at her first cry I sobbed as if all the fears were released in that one loud newborn cry.
Is He listening?
Does He care?
I think, as children sometimes it is so easy to just throw up prayers in blind trust and our young innocent eyes search for His answer as if He is real and personal. Then, as adults, we learn about real life and about cause and effect and we become wise and independent. Our prayers can become general and often out of duty- or we save our prayers for when we can’t control things anymore. We arrange and plan and manage our path. Everything is so controlled and decided that we don’t actually need Him to answer our prayers. If He doesn’t we have a backup plan ready.
I had a backup plan in the works. A scheduled induction at exactly 40 weeks at a nearby hospital was logical. I tried. But nothing worked out the way it was supposed to and I was left to just trust Him.
Which is a good thing because He never fails.
Have you arranged your life in such a way that you don’t really need Him to answer your prayers? Do you save your specific prayers for when you’ve exhausted all of your ways and resources and you have nothing left but to trust Him?